Monday, April 28, 2008

TheOrY oF reLaTIvITY

This world… yes, this very world we live in, is a bloody oxymoron. Joblessness can sometimes trigger off thoughts that would take philosophers eons to arrive at. And considering the fact that it took me bout half an hour to ponder and gather this gem of a realization, and also considering the fact that I am as much a philosopher as I am thin, my degree of joblessness must be of substantial magnitude.


Before my verbosity drowns the noble intention of this post, let me bring to your attention, that this world qualifies as an oxymoron simply because, every single aspect of this temporal setting of life is “Absolutely Relative”. Nothing.. I repeat… NOTHING is absolute in this world. But we humans are a race, weird enough to contradict this glaring fact. Denial is something that we were born with and will pass on to every single generation that can fit into the slot between now and never.


Just about everything we do or feel at any point of time is relative to something else that somebody else or we ourselves might have felt/done at an earlier stage. I say this because everything is questionable and everything is debatable in my mind. Who defines what’s good? Who defines pain? Why do I have to believe that happiness is what I feel when I am actually smiling? Even something as certain as ‘death’ is relative to all the years before, termed ‘life’. What we call ‘light’, I perceive as the mere absence of ‘darkness’.
One would not exist without the other.


But I, like all others, still continue searching for absolute-ness in an absolutely relative world. Why? Very simple. The moment everyone in the world adopts the philosophy of the previous paragraph, all hell breaks loose. ‘Good’ will be what each one thinks good for him/herself, and so would be every single thing that we thought to be well defined and concrete. Every single word and every single ideal and theory and ethic and feeling becomes questionable. Morals will not exist and neither will order of life. Hell can be called heaven, bad can be called good and demons can be crowned angels. It is the very insanity of the pursuit for absolute-ness that keeps this world safe and sane (as safe and sane as it presently is… this again is relative when compared to a different echelon of thought relating to how sane the world actually is).


I’d like to conclude my claims of relativity by saying that this post in itself is pretty contradictory and embodies the most important feature this world has to offer; that of being a hidden oxymoron, which is actually pretty easy to spot.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

CONFUSED

"Confused" is not the word. Something stronger would be required to convey the state of mind I am in. I could always dig up a fancy one from the annals of my half baked vocab, but today i just dont feel like it. Well come to think of it, screw the vocab and screw everything else thats even remotely screwable. I first need to figure out what I need to do. Both short-time and long-time. YES, I am a victim of the "Why am I here?" Syndrome. Not the metaphysical/spiritual one though, more of the professional/practical one. About a couple of months back I was pretty sure of where I would be heading. Not anymore.

Why does everything have to be so damn complicated? All I want to do is be happy. But then there is this stupid society. A breeding place for competition. And NO!, U cant not give a damn. Try ignoring a fly buzzing in front of ur face; U'd know what I'm speaking about. The problem is, U need to BE happy and in the process make other people happy too. U cant just walk away happy leaving a wretched world of melancholy people behind you. I guess Its the doing of a pretty irritating part of the abstract department of the human mind, called Conscience. I might not be making a lot of sense, but this is exactly what I feel just about now. Uncertainty is an offspring of Ignorance. Confusion is a distant cousin. I am not equipped well enough to choose my path and not dumb enough to go where life takes me. I am moderate. In just about everything. Words such as "average", "moderate" I feel were penned down for me. Have never reached the highest high or the lowest low any time of my life. Have always been too damn scared to go all out for one thing; Perhaps thats why I have ended up being a Jack of all trades. Thats not too bad, but it aint great either.

Here is a dialogue from the movie "The good the bad and the ugly", which I found damn interesting and something that i think I would like to model my life upon. Would like to end this post with it : "If you work for a living, then why do you kill yourself working?"